Flashbacks?
Year one is just you living the same tough day on a loop you can’t shake it off. no matter how you try to distract yourself you can’t escape it. people keep saying it’s all part of the plan and maybe they’re not wrong but every time they say it you want to smash their head with your knee. fast forward two or three years and you start to feel normal almost like you’re going to get through unscarred. but then something simple like a song or something he used to say is said by someone else triggering everything and suddenly you’re thrown back to that day reliving the news all over again.